March 2012
5 posts
binge & purge.
ativan, vicodin, lasix, exlax.
500 crunches.
just another day in the life.
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helpme
i am completely out of control.
February 2012
187 posts
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i should be harpooned.
41439) I don’t purge, but my stomach is full… of water. I’m seriously considering purging just so it won’t be full.
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I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped.
“Alone. Yes, that’s the key word, the most awful word in the English tongue....”
– Stephen King (via sufferpeacefully)
i think i purged out my stomach itself
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waiting until 8 o’clock, when the eating-purging cycle begins.
every.single.day.
it’s all i want to do and i hate every second of it.
55 minutes.
Anonymous asked: well, you have to get used to being normal weight. why be fragile and unable to do amazing things? why be grossly thin and looked at as sickly? be healthy and beautiful, not bones and ugliness. i'm huge and when people as thin as you call themselves fat, that makes me feel like pure shit and want to kill myself. I want to be thin so badly, but it's never going to happen.
let-the-magic-happen asked: I look at your blog and I get sad, because I'm 5'7 and 140 and am a fat monster. I wish I had the control to be anorexic, honestly. But, I also think about your parents and how sad I'm sure they would be if you died. I don't think any parent wants to see their baby purposefully starve to death. Not trying to change your mind...I am full of conflicting thoughts. I wish I had an...
Anonymous asked: you're already thin enough. you're going to start looking disgusting. you do need fat on your body, just not a bunch like me.
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don’t know what i’m doing with my life.
don’t know if i’m staying in florida or moving back to ny.
wish i wasn’t bulimic anymore.
wish i weighed 80 pounds again.
cut the fuck out of my grotesquely jiggly thigh tonight.
yup.
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am i even sick anymore?
The bulimarexic cycle has been the norm for so long now that I’m starting to doubt I even have an eating disorder anymore. Maybe this is just how I eat. Maybe I’m not really sick or in danger. Maybe i’m just losing my mind.
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i fucking hate my body.
